Into the Deep End

Yesterday I started water aerobics. This may not seem like a big deal to some but it is to me. You see in September of 2012 I broke my right ankle. I was at the gym. Unfortunately, I wasn't doing anything awesome I was just walking from one machine to the other and stepped on it wrong and broke it. Then in May of 2013 ( around 9 months later) I broke my left ankle. Again I was just walking. I was actually at Relay for Life. I was walking to registration. I didn't make a single lap before I broke my ankle.

So needless to say I have been terrified of any kind of exercise since then. It is so difficult. I still don't wear high heels. I am so terrified of breaking my ankle again. So, being active in any way is a huge step for me!

When I broke my ankle the first time I was going to curves 2-3 days a week and doing Zumba 1-2 days a week. After I broke my ankle I tried to go back to Zumba but I started too soon and was in a lot of pain and so I had to stop. I was finally starting to get to a place where I was getting a little more active when bam! I broke ankle number two!

If you don't think this messes with your whole body... you are crazy. I can't trust my body. I can't trust it to even walk to the mail box. So exercise? Forget about it! 

So it may not seem like much to you but water aerobics is a HUGE step for me. I also actually feel sore this morning. I'm really excited to get back to some kind of activity.

Tonight I have a fitness assessment with a personal trainer at the gym. I am so freaked out. I don't even know what I weigh since I broke my ankle but I know it is bad. My clothing size is much larger and I feel like a slug so I am not looking forward to the assessment part. What I am looking forward to ,however, is getting the 12 week exercise prescription. It will be tailored to me. It will be made by someone who understands my fear and my injuries. That part has me really stoked. As I tell my daughters. These athletes you are in awe of right now. They are started right where you are. They all started at the beginning.  

So here I go again. Starting at the beginning. Terrified but starting none the less. Letting my faith be greater than my fear.

Blessings,