Like my title? It came from Doc McStuffins. Lol I tend to have fallapartitude. I don't do anything small. I wait till I get super overwhelmed and then I freak out and fall apart. Then I throw up my hands and quit? Does anyone know me else have this problem or is it just me? I need to start eating the elephant one bite at a time and stop trying to shove the whole thing in my mouth at once. Lol
Fallapartitude
New Year
It is 2015! A new year is upon us. I for one am ready. Ready to embrace this new year for all it has to bring. I am ready to step into this year unafraid. I had a lot of emotional chaos at the end of last year. my 16 year old moved in with my ex husband. That has boken my heart into pieces. I cried rivers of tears. Yet in the end I have survived. I have learned that sometimes you can fight and try really hard but in the end you have to let go because it is what is best. I have learned it's ok to step out of the way and let the consequences hit him in the face. That is how he will learn. Being a mom is hard. It's ok to cry and feel like a failure. Then give it to God and keep on keepin on.
Tis The Season
There are seasons to motherhood. This is one thing I have learned. I am entering the teenage years with my kids. Well my oldest is already a teenager and my middle child is 12 so she is almost there. In this season there is a lot of running kids from here to there.
My girls are both all star cheerleaders. We have competitions in different cities one to two times a month. Plus I am at the gym every evening. I also babysit a 2 year old during the day.
I feel like I just got good at the last season of motherhood and now I am totally underwater. I am questioning every decision I have ever made for them. ( Teenagers will do that to you) . I can't seem to keep up with my housework. I just don't know how to do this anymore. I need to find my center and figure out how to make it through this season of motherhood. Anyone have any suggestions?
Blessings,
Rising Up From the Bottom
Into the Deep End
I Had to Start Over
After my daughter started all star cheerleading my life slowly started spinning out of control. If you have never had a child in all star cheer I will fill you in. She is at the gym eight hours a week for practice and tumbling. Also starting in November until April we travel almost ever weekend for competitions. Now take all of that and add two more children. One baton twirler who also has competitions and a sixteen year old boy who ...well he is a sixteen year old boy. lol
I am a person who becomes easily overwhelmed. I am also put myself under a huge burden of being perfect at everything too. So let me paint the picture. I babysit a 16 month old Monday to Friday 8-5:30. I run children to activities every evening until around 9pm. Then every weekend we travel for competitions. Plus I have a house to keep in order where five people live. By the time April came around I was at near breakdown stage. I had fallen apart numerous times, I was never able to relax or have down time, and I felt the need to be perfect at everything.
Also I can not say no so I am adding more to my plate all the time from church activities to whatever.
Finally I fell apart. There had to be a better way.
Here is what I have started doing to lighten my load for the new year.
1. I am learning to say no. To my children and to others.
2. I am creating healthy boundaries.
3. I have deleted a bunch of facebook friends.
This isn't because I don't like them or anything like that. Many were old acquaintances that I didn't even talk to on facebook or in the real world. I just cut out the clutter.
I am still working on lightening my load but I will tell you the main thing that I have had to do. I had to sit down and figure out what my goals were. I had lost sight of what I was doing. I lost sight of my priorities.
Here are my priorities
1. My God.
I wasn't even doing what I always felt he had called me to do. Which is be a wife and mother.
I had also stopped going to church because Sunday was the only day I had free sometimes and I was so exhausted.
2. My husband.
We lost all deep and meaningful communication. It consisted of who was going where most days. I didn't see him much even though he worked at home and his home was in chaos most of the time.
3. My children.
They were getting to their activities but most of our family time was spent in the care.
4. Everything else.
Everyone else and impressing them with my supermom powers had moved up to top priority and that is not where it should be.
One of the best things that has helped me is reading this book.
You can find it on Amazon. This book is exactly what I have been needing!
I hope this helps someone like me.
I would love to hear your comments.
Blessings,